I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this chance to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for initially in a long while, I don’t feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I could be this for the incorrect reason; as a way to prevent my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I’d had any insights. What I’m about to fairly share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have enable you to see inside acim teacher. Don’t are interested troubling the mind, won’t you allow it to be?” This confused me as I could not consider something that I’d said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that probably the most prominent fear I’d in visiting the Monastery was that I’d somehow interfere using its residents’reassurance, by simply my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for several years, and has colored lots of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief will be (has been?) released.
You will find other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t consider them right now.