I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights acim. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
Prayer is trading (sharing) a Tune of Enjoy and Formation or judgments of the confidence centered on that which you request (agree with) in the mind. There is no different way. In the Course, your brain (content) is split between Lord and the pride; and you’re choosing all the time with an area as cause for effect.
Forms (all things of this world) are miscreations sending the ego’s judgmental believed system. We’ve managed to get up (miscreated that world) and can provide it up any time by solving your brain (forgiveness). True prayer requires this correction of your head as Lord has nothing to do with forms.
What Prayer is Maybe not:
When you are usually choosing, everything you request once you wish is what counts. Whenever you plead in prayer to own God fix an application problem with yet another form problem, you are asking the pride brain for support (not God). These types and needs are regarded more crucial than God’s Enjoy which will stay concealed to the amount you select the illusion.
All external points (forms) are needs. Other labels are needs, dreams, position, issues, sickness, human enjoy (special relationships), presents and targets these days, etc. They are everything you pick as substitutes for God’s Enjoy and the ego may pose the purpose of prayer by with them to help expand the illusion. Thus, prayer can’t be about “forms” or “needs” in just about any way.